A Quick Look

Come in and see the world through my eyes. I know that this may be a strange or cheesy thing to say. but what else can I say to you to tell you what this blog is all about. For me writing has always been a way for me to escape my life. I would write about anything and everything... except my life. Well that's over and done with now.

So you may have some questions already, such as;
-"What does she mean by, 'the world through her eyes'?"
- "what could she possibly see differently?"
- and "what is this blog about?"

Well this "Quick look" will answer all of your questions.

First of all, let me introduce myself to you. My name is Alessandra. But many of my friends call me Alli. I have been living in the same home for the past 12 years. Most people would want to move and change their scenery, or even move south after that long of a time. But for me. The consistency of living in a small neighborhood with hardly anything changing has been a comfort to me. I thrive when I am in a consistent environment. Nothing much changes around here. as a matter of fact, most people don't even know we exist. Even those who live less than 5 minutes away don't know where I live... it doesn't even show up on mapquest! The only thing that ever changes around here is when there is a "for sale" sign in the lawn of one of our neighbors. They are all in their 80's so usually that sign is accompanied with a funeral. and I know that sounds mean, but sometimes the grumpy people who live around here can definitely get on your nerves. like the other day when  the neighbor's kid got hit by an old woman driving a truck. He was ok, but he did really hurt his leg. and all the old lady was concerned about was her car. like, seriously. she is yelling at this poor kid who has been traumatized because she decided that she would speed down the road and not watch the children who were playing in the yard.

But other than that its quiet around here. Especially when I take my walk at night! Honestly that is my favorite thing to do. I love how quiet it is! Every day I take the same walk, at the same time, to the same places. Now that may seem OCD. But it is just me wanting some form of consistency in my life, which is so hard to get when you live in a house with 7 other people. My parents, my five younger siblings and me have been living together and homeschooling in this house for 12 years. My siblings are what makes my world go around! there is Chelsea (17), Damian (13), Naomi (11), Nathaniel (9), and Tabitha (6). All of whom I am very close with.

Now I guess you can see the pattern of me needing consistency. The reason behind this is that I suffer from severe anxiety. This isn't a new development. As a matter of fact I have had anxiety since I was 6 years old. I don't take any medications because I have found my own ways of coping without needing it. music, writing, walking, singing and just sleeping have proved to work very well in helping me get through my life without medication. Because of my anxiety I have over the years developed my own little world inside my head. This isn't schizophrenia or something like that. it's more of my happy place or coping mechanism than anything else. I have used this technique ever since I was a child. and eventually I wrote a book on all these characters. to some people they may just be characters on a page. But for me I have developed them so much that they are more a part of me than just ideas inside my head. I'm sure that many writers would agree that the characters you write about have a special place in your heart.

Since I have been writing from the age of 13. The way I see things has definitely changed from a very literal and realistic way of seeing things. To a more descriptive and imaginative way of seeing things. such as when I see the sunset. I don't just look at it and say it is beautiful. I will literally start describing it in my head. What color is it? how would I describe the color? what do the clouds remind me of? where have I been where I've seen a sunset like this before? When describing people it is always their looks and their personality. What color are their eyes (describe in detail using examples)? how would I describe their face? skin tone? hair color? style? does their personality match their looks? are they charming? rude? funny? sweet? tool? player? all of this happens when I meet new people and as I develop a relationship with them I also develop their description. All of this is just a gimps into what it means to see life through my eyes.